To be, or not to be, that is the question:

Hamlet:

To be, or not to be, that is the question:

Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles
And by opposing end them. To die—to sleep,
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to: 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep, perchance to dream—ay, there's the rub:

One of the favorited soliloquies of  Shakespeare in his classic Hamlet. Who would ever forget this famous lines that became one of the greatest. Now why did i post this excerpts...because I too is asking myself that question...a lot of times. What is that question? That is mine to keep...gomenasai...a very private one. I always believe that things happen regardless of how we plan it to be, but some times it depend on how we forge life. If you let things happen the way you like it to be you can veer things the way you want it. But then we have this way to fate. Things also happen without our knowledge or sans any plan...they just happen...and can't avoid it to happen...just merely fate takes its course.

When things go against the way I planned it...I just brace myself with enough courage to go on and lots of faith in the Lord...and seek His mighty hands to lift me up when am in the lowest ebb of my life. I believe it will always soon pass away and leave me a better person as I have always believe I am. I will always want to bounce back...just like a ball.

Health is wealth...

That old adage is true enough...

Health is the prime asset of a man. If he is in good condition it is considered wealth.
I vow for someone who has a strict guidelines to keep fit...say for example, those who go to gym almost everyday of their life. I used to go to the gym, and I saw those who has strict eating diets. They are strong, healthy and the will power is superb. They choose food...that is not harmful to body...eating less carbo and less fat. They go for steamed-egg whites, banana, water and fruits.

I think I can go back biking...to help lose weight. It is good to sweat in the morning...environmental-friendly too.
Or I can even go back to the gym...my ortho-doc gave me go signal to do these things if I want to...nothing is harmful though. It is good to stretch some hamstrings and muscles and have a good blood-flow.

Finally, my friend gave the mitten and she's now...off the hook!

I received some text msgs while I was blogging and slurping my coffee, earlier this morning. Mixed emo...happy to know that it has ended after 4 years...and at the same time a bit sad 'coz I knew how much she has loved the guy, I don't know why. But yes...that's great coz it's finally over with my friend and her...I don't know how would I call him, but anyway...there's a lot to celebrate. Everything now is all water under the bridge. I don't think it's a waste of time but at least she has learned something from that relationship. It was doomed right from the off I told her...but she never did listen. And she swore to me that she's now ready to take command of the situation. I know that it will all soon pass out of her mind...everything will be forgotten, I said. She's now turning into music, that's taking her mind off her past troubles. And I'm very happy she finally gave the mitten. I know that she's quite hurting...probably not to move on but to adjust now with the present situation...excruciating I guess...but in time she'll be ok.

She sometimes realized that there's no way her marriage could be turned around. Yet, again the only answer seemed to be in waiting for fate to intervene. She's older now and am sure more au fait with the ways of men...surely she'll learn now. She's old enough to winnow truth from lies, to know what's good and not. I hope too, that now she'll strain her mind and grope back into the depths of her memory and soon she'd ask what good it could do to remember? I feel sorry that I have a special knack for picking the very worst thing to ask at the very worst moment. I know she's still hurting but knowing how resilient she is...she'll bounce back in time.

Pardon me if I veer on adult talk...let's go PG now! OK, for many non-orgasmic women there is a desperate search for the key to unlock the doorway to sexual fulfillment, but definitely not my friend...coz she is not of that kind. More than physical love, she craves for spiritual bond---a soul to soul relationship and the meeting of the minds...of the same wavelength. So then love was developed...according to her, the guy wooed her or I should say for what?! She is a woman who has dared to cut off from her sexual life, yes she is married but her marriage was in disarray when she met the guy. She then allowed herself to celibate just to be faithful to the man she has learned to love. The man who made a promise to protect her, the man who said he'd never leave her...that he would stay forever...sigh

And for you my friend, here's my take...there's no time to sit around pondering the impossibilities of your situation. You need to find answers to save your own life.
The most I think is that you now keep your head above the water.

And...you don't have to keep a stiff upper lip for me...coz there's no virtue in false modesty...my friend! Good luck...