It should always be la la love!

I am still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances.
Martha Washington

To be, or not to be, that is the question:

Hamlet:

To be, or not to be, that is the question:

Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles
And by opposing end them. To die—to sleep,
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to: 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep, perchance to dream—ay, there's the rub:

One of the favorited soliloquies of  Shakespeare in his classic Hamlet. Who would ever forget this famous lines that became one of the greatest. Now why did i post this excerpts...because I too is asking myself that question...a lot of times. What is that question? That is mine to keep...gomenasai...a very private one. I always believe that things happen regardless of how we plan it to be, but some times it depend on how we forge life. If you let things happen the way you like it to be you can veer things the way you want it. But then we have this way to fate. Things also happen without our knowledge or sans any plan...they just happen...and can't avoid it to happen...just merely fate takes its course.

When things go against the way I planned it...I just brace myself with enough courage to go on and lots of faith in the Lord...and seek His mighty hands to lift me up when am in the lowest ebb of my life. I believe it will always soon pass away and leave me a better person as I have always believe I am. I will always want to bounce back...just like a ball.

An icon of abstract painting...

Jackson Pollock, American painter and the icon of abstract painting who broke the conventional way of painting known for his own techniques and said to change American art by using liquid paint and drip it into the canvass on the ground and not from the easel.

"My painting does not come from the easel. I prefer to tack the unstretched canvas to the hard wall or the floor. I need the resistance of a hard surface. On the floor I am more at ease. I feel nearer, more part of the painting, since this way I can walk around it, work from the four sides and literally be in the painting."

He died in a car crash with his convertible and said to be under the influence of alcohol.

Source: Wikipedia

Indeed!

If you think that you’re losing someone, never be afraid because… if that person does love you a lot, that person will take the risks just to have you once again…

Don't ever go...

Words to ponder!

We are taught to "do unto others as they do unto you"~but sometimes we have to treat others better than they treat us!

Always stay near God my dearest friend....

One of the things I do enjoy out of blogging is...gaining some friends from around the world. And suddenly I remember my good good friend Carlos de Almeida of Portugal. The late Carlos de Almeida. I remember him by this song where we became close after I asked him what the title was. He answered and that was the start of our friendship. He was an old but a very pleasant and joyful man from Portugal. He had two blogs and during those times when he was still alive, there never was a day that I didn't visit his blog, same way he did. Sometimes he would send messages about how he spent long drive just so to visit his mom who's 84 that time, always during Wednesday and one time he told me he had renewed his DL so he was driving with no license, too bad I told him. He would teased me about  him eating choco ice cream, coz I told him I didn't like it at all. Never, and he would say why on earth did I hated it when in fact everyone must be craving to have some. He chuckled when I told him I didn't like it because it would only make my teeth look grossly dirty.Then one day I heard him complained that he was having acid reflux...an illness that's Adam to me...so I made a research about it. He was able to send me a message that he would just be away in a few weeks for his medications. And promised that he'd be back in time. Then, it shocked me to see one day that there's some messages on his chat-board that he passed away. For the very first time, I did cry for a friend I have yet to meet. Though oceans apart ... the bond of friendship was developed via constant hi and hello and via music. From his blogsites "Tessnisse" and "O Papa Xicolates" and untimely demise, I gained another friend who I care a lot...she's Carlos' friend too, and now...we are the best of friend indeed no matter how thousands of miles we are apart. I wish to see her, crossing my fingers. I knew it was Carlos initiative to let our paths meet via his blogsites. Now we consider him as our angel.

how his blog looked like!

PS/ While writing this I was planning to  make a link to his websites...oh dear...they're both cancelled, I didn't know that if the blog goes idle, the admin has the right to removed it from the system ...had I known I would have it saved...am so sadden now that I won't ever see them again. Snifffffffffffffff!!!


PS/ My friend just sent this link about Carlos...although it cannot be opened just the same...it warms our hearts...We miss you Carlos!!!

Whatever tomorrow brings...

 Lyrics here...

A contortionist, an acrobate, and a pro backbender extraordinaire...

See Nokulunga Buthelezi doing her extraordinary talent that will keep you in awed for some moment. Watch her and see how far she pushes it to the limit, backbending-wise...the skin she's wearing compliments her prowess!

Learning how to dance when dark clouds set in....

Who cares about dark clouds anyway? But still we have to learn how to dance when it sets in the horizon...why...because the darkest clouds bring the heaviest shower of blessings, and am I right here?

Life in my experiences, is very unpredictable...yesterday I was so happy and things were overwhelmingly good and going great  the way I wanted it to be...but suddenly I woke up all things are in messed and tears are just welling up. Tears are really meant to fall as we say, same as rain has to fall too when heavy. But after the tears and the rain comes what...of course sunshine with rainbow is about to fill our eyes. That's always  likely to happen every time. So I do welcome things as they are because I believe after some down ebb or even my lowest of ebb...will then come my raibow. Am always positive and will stay positive despite my trials. Trials do whet my courage and my faith tremendously. And it should remain that way no matter what comes my way...

As I always believe, that our faith should be greater than our fears! Amen!

PS/ I decided to then use my own picture here, where I felt so afraid looking at the calmer sea. Was so afraid at that moment when my daughter took the picture...because this was just a few days after the great tsunami that engulfed Miyage and its neighboring prefectures. Was so afraid that beneath the tranquils of the ocean lies the devastating horror it could bring in just a snap of a finger. But then I will always love the beauty of the water. I enjoy watching how it  dances with the wind...and hear the roaring of waves.

Just like life, they are synonymously both unpredictable.

Not only for kids!

Oh no, that notion is very wrong...as we grow older, we as adult needs shots also. Say for example, deseases such as hepatitis, measles, and influenza among others are so called vaccine-preventable deseases that affect adults as much as children too. Although we target children on our immunization programs that it reduces the incidence of deseases and deaths also, but it appears that among adults like me only very small number have received immunizations to help them protect against these kind of illnesses.

To receive these appropriate immunizations, no matter how healthy you are, it plays a vital role in safeguarding our wealth...and that is our health.

Vaccines according to health authorities are among the safest medicines available. And getting the recommended vaccination is one of the most effective ways to stay healthy. Take it from doc!

Make sure you are protected...
Get the vaccination you need...

" Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction " 

-Antoine de Saint-Exupery

The Clan of the Cave Bear...my very first abstract

I haven't updated my SHVOONG since I registered last April of 2007. And here is my very first abstract that I did post for MyShvoong...

This novel by author Jean M. Auel is rich in pre-historic treasure where the clan used their limited knowledge to understand the way of nature and the life per se. The little girl Ayla was orphaned when the earth shook. Iza the medicine woman decided to adopt her even if Brun didn't approve the idea simply because Ayla was born to Others. Ayla found a home and a family with Iza, Creb, the lopsided Mog-ur and the most powerful magician of the clan and later on with her sister Uba, the daughter of Iza who came after Iza was adopted. The story shows how respect and love nurtured in Creb's hearth. It shows how the girl Ayla grew up strongwilled, respectful and later acquiesce to life's noisome trivialities and to Brun who had shown her severe hostility. Jean successfully showed details of the steppes, mountains, the climate and everything around the clan's cave. Superb and fantastic setting. It is heart-pounding when Ayla went through a lot of meaningful and hostile gaze after using the sling. Women were then forbidden to hunt but Ayla disobeyed some rules of the clan so she died several times with their curse. She bore a child from Broud. Then later on became a good medicine woman from the lesson Iza gave her. Brun is a good leader who wouldn't want to be swayed not even his son Broud. His interest is only for the advantage of the whole clan. Ayla then gained respect from the clan. And everybody was looking forward to a better future in the person of Ayla who has then the most powerful totem with the most powerful spirit, the cave lion.

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World wide abstract site

Am in my gloomy silence...feeling low and unspirited!

"If you're feeling low, don't despair. The sun has a sinking spell every night, but it comes back up every morning. The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain."
Dolly Parton


I know this is going to pass soon...all I have to do is like always before, gather all my courage...glean every bit of hope I could get to bounce back and be in my old self again. I know for sure that being resilient is the best. Soon I can regain my best equilibrium and it's not far from getting there...by God's graces I know will.

“Never let yesterday's disappointments overshadow tomorrow's dreams.”

The value of living happily inspite and despite of...

Being happy is a wise choice. No matter how our moods are, we can always make ourselves fit to sing some happy tune. That's for me a good therapy, veering away from emotional doldrums. We don't need to sulk and hide...sometimes I do but positively, say I'd buy books from a resale stand where my fave authors like Dean Koontz, Jim Grisham, Jodie Picoult (sadly no resale for this)...Jean Deveraux, and my super fave Sidney Sheldon...and voila I can be in a long hiatus mode. Nothing from the outside world except am with all the books am reading. I am not anti-social but I would prefer to stay in the sactuary of my room comfortably rather than eaves-dropping or having some sort of chit chat. But I love to see some of my colleagues and friends over lunch outside or at someone's house or in my house if there's a chance. But i really love books...and I never get tired of reading.

Now aside from reading I mostly enjoy music at home. I don't know how to live my life without music. I love every beat...be it classical, instrumental, like sax I dig most, I find saxists like Kenny G, with Brian McKnight's Careless Whispers, David Koz...very sexy when playing the saxophones, oh my gawd, these are good making ### music for lovers. Playing safe so excuse me for bowdlerizing, if these are not my words. I love also reggae, alternative music, whoah I like bossa, jazz is really nice indeed. And down to Lady Gaga....and would you believe, even the susurration of leaves and even the roars of waves are like music to my ears? What would life be without music?

So whenever I veer into music that is synonymously feeling unspirited and my courage is scraped...paramount to being unhappy and lifeless...like am today but I think am old enough to handle everything since I can say I truly got my Phd in crying and being devastated. So now...it's safe to say  that I am in the mend...a bit bored...but I will be okey in no time at all. Am grateful of my big faith! Faith always find it's way to heal me...

So always feel la la love, even at the lowest point of our moods!

Life is still a blessing! And will always feel so so blest no matter what comes my way...!

One of my fave Japanese songs...by SMAP



See the lyrics here...

He is not worth it...

I have a friend who called me up, she said she wanted to unload her sad plight and share it with me being one of the few friends she has ever trusted, yay for me! So...we met, talked while having coffee and crepes...sometimes I would cracked some boffoes to make her laugh whenever she'd start to cry. She said she fell in love with a guy, who's based in the US. To make the long story short, their romance didn't work well...and finally found out that the guy recently married someone who also hailed from the town she's from. She said she thought their relationship was going to be for keeps since they lived as husband and wife already when the guy was here for a vacation, sans any legal vows. She's so helpless and so devastated.

Now here's my take.

       Anyone can go crazy in love...because it can't be avoided...it's a natural, wonderful feeling each one of us has gone through, or is going through, or yet to go through... maybe once or a lot of times. But the thing is, if the guy decided to leave you, why make a fuss? What is important is for you to move on. Try to get hold of yourself...rest your heart and contemplate...Life does not end there. Loving someone who loves somebody else? Worse if you sulk and bleed. Stop hurting and try to go out and meet friends to console you and your loneliness. Try not to forget yourself, hurting will cease in time. I hope you're coping now, my friend....loving yourself more is the only thing you can do for yourself. Love for me should always be reciprocated, for if it's not why would you call it love then...if sans love at all from the other end. Its should be like a two way lane...if not look around and find someone who is worth loving. Or better still...do look good and be content with how you are being single and loveless...anyway there's a lot to busy yourself with say like go with friends who are also single and they too can feel your sentiments and in a way can help boost again your self esteem. Friendship can do a lot of good to you in time of difficulties and trying times. So go out and enjoy! LOL, me I just sulk and read books...until I'm back on my feet again... ;D

We are celebrating!

To recapitulate the birth of our Philippine Independence from The History of the Filipino People, by Teodoro A. Agoncillo...and I quote unquote;

"On June 12, between four and five in the afternoon, Aguinaldo, in the presence of a huge crowd, proclaimed the independence of the Philippines at Cavite el Viejo (Kawit). For the first time, the Philippine National Flag, made in Hongkong by Mrs. Marcela Agoncillo, assisted by Lorenza Agoncillo and Delfina Herboza, was officially hoisted and the Philippine National March played in public. The Act of the Declaration of Independence was prepared by Ambrosio Rianzares Bautista, who also read it. A passage in the Declaration reminds one of another passage in the American Declaration of Independence. The Philippine Declaration was signed by ninety-eight persons, among them an American army officer who witnessed the proclamation. The proclamation of Philippine independence was, however, promulgated on August 1 when many towns has already been organized under the riles laid down by the Dictatorial Government."


Proclamation of Philippine
Independence The most significant achievement of Aguinaldo's Dictatorial Government was the proclamation of Philippine Independence in Kawit, Cavite, on June 12, 1898. The day was declared a national holiday. Thousands of people from the provinces gathered in Kawit to witness the historic event. The ceremony was solemnly held at the balcony of General Emilio Aguinaldo's residence. The military and civil officials of the government were in attendance.
A dramatic feature of the ceremony was the formal unfurling of the Filipino flag amidst the cheers of the people. At the same time, the Philippine National Anthem was played by the band. Ambrosio Rianzares Bautista solemnly read the "Act of the Declaration of Independence" which he himself wrote. The declaration was signed by 98 persons. One of the signers was an American, L.M. Johnson, Colonel of Artillery.
From The Philippines: A Unique Nation... of Dr. Sonia M. Zaide, quote and unquote...

PS/ When am blogging I do away from copying and pasting just so to post, but at this point I want to be precise so I have but to do it unhesitantly to produce a clearer view of what really transpired during that memorable day in our history.

Having an idiopathic scoliosis is no joke...

If one has a severe scoliosis curvature, it is synonymous to pain. Yes, indeed surely they do suffer from the agony of eternal back pains. Like me with a 30 degree bend, and I pray to God it won't zoom to 40, one that needs surgery...that's why I religiously wear my Thoraco-lumbo-sacral brace. It guards my everyday movement. And I can't surely live without it. I freak out whenever there's a chance that I'll misplace it,or I may lose it anywhere. I got one that's made for me exclusively when I was hospitalized and I'd feel awkward using it outside because everybody seemed to be looking at me. I just use it at home. A Japanese-friend  gave me 5 braces with magnets at the back that help heal back pains. And I bought another one at Mercury drugstore that costs a little less than P3000. I live in the world of braces...and I also have 4 different kind of corsets, a close-fitting undergarment worn usually by most women to help look slimmer. I bought a new one last day. One good thing I notice, it helps trim my tummy...but the sad part of it is, it irritates my tummy skin. 

Now, being health conscious and with my curvature...I have to lose a lot of unwanted fabs that exacerbate my condition. I am now losing a lot of weight...thanks to you dawg...and many thanks to my OB-GYNE doctor for her positive suggestion.

Keeping slim is easy if you have enough will to do it. It's good to be fit. But for me it is a must lest I'd be in pain forever.

I vow to lose more to stay healthy...young looking and it's just that I want to stay longer so to speak!

Great big pretender!

my back photo 

Why are there some people who lie about even on smallest things? Do they gain something from this? Do they know that this is considered as personality disorder? Now who destroys who? For all you know you are destroying your own self image, your own person. What can be more scary is if they tend to become a pathological liar  or "mythomaniac"...and this is something than can be more self-demeaning and well I must call it a self-destructing behavior. What is worse  above all is that they don't value honesty and loyalty, how much more to respect others? If one called their attention they veer to start an argument..and you'll hear..."So what's the problem there?!"

I admit I have a very low tolerance to people who tend to lie even in the smallest details. My question is why lie...when it is easier to tell the truth? They lie to get your attention, lie to manipulate poor soul or just merely want to save their butt, or just to gain something? Just like a soldier wearing a camouflage with coal on his face not to be placed...by his enemies.

Me if I smell someone is a good liar...I don't call his attention....Live and Let Live...my motto. I will say that he is one and then I zip the zap. And won't ever talk to him again. That will be a useless option. Just do away from this kind of behavior and let him find his own.

Am not an honest honest person but I must say I am not uncomfortable telling the truth about myself.

Why I posted this topic?!
...because someone did lie to me, big deal! You are such a big liar! How could you utter such words you never meant in the first place?

PS/ My son Arvin took the (inset) pict while I was busy blogging yesterday...didn't know he was apt to something and I quite like the outcome... ;D

Oh dear me...my hands are full!

Eversince I came back here, I have yet to see myself lying in my bed, laxing...idling and enjoying reading my fave books. Bought some in Japan. But that is yet to happen. Been busy giving the house a thorough once over...sighhhhhhhh! Doing this and that...wanting to procrastinate but I couldn't do it due to my voluminous concerns here and there. Good thing since my Japan sojourn, one thing I hate doing is to expose myself outside with the glaring  heat of the sun. OMG, everyone here is complaining about the scorching heat, and we aren't exempted of course. So I was forced to buy a new air-conditioning unit. Then the problem lies on how much electrical consumption will be added in our monthly. Well anyway, that's better than die of exhaustion and heat-stroke. I want to stay longer...for people who I love dearly.

Last Saturday... Arvin forced me to stop doing my chores and tagged me along the oval...where we once lived, our fave jogging area. Went there to have a breather...and just have fun...goofing and telling each stories.While Arvin was so busy shooting photos of me and Leana, some kid came to watch us goofing with Arvin's Canon Eos. They watched us until it's over.

It was fun fun fun afternoon.

A lil more dieting! ;)

Jump, jump!

Goofing mode!

Hish-hash...with Leana

Bonding with Leana and Arvin

quenching our thirst...

Mata Condo!

May 29th at Nagoya Chubu Centrair...with my dearest daughter Aya-san! Mata ne...

me and my dau

with daisuki