To som1 there in Aichi....

From my heart of hearts

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...

Sun is up....

Yesterday that bank issue upset me again as usual...never ending promises, pakialam ko ba sa patakaran nila, e di naman ako nangutang sa kanila. I was talking to the branch manager and I'm ballistic na talaga...sinasagad kc nila ang patience ko. Sorry na lang kau. At sino matutuwa sa gnagawa nyo?

I went out to buy 6 red roses and baby's breath...and put it in a tall green vase. I did arrange the table. And voila!!! Nkakainspire!!! Wala lang just to be a breather naman. This bank issue is really a nerve-wracking experience talaga! Sana naman they have the decency to clear their names. If everything is iron out...it will be a joy! Hindi ako tanga para d magisip ng connivance sa tagal ng time na hinantay ko. Can anybody blame me for that?!!! Bayad na ako, ano pa dapat kong ipagantay? Tell me nga?! Yang tagal na yan it only shows na something is wrong somewhere...na kayo kayo lang ang nkakaalam. I tell you guys, I wasn't born yesterday.....!!! : / Kung walang problema...then prove it!


Some things are better and inspiring....!!!

To som1 out there...

I've been missing you sooo bad...
I love you so so much....just keep that in mind!

GOD bless and Take care...kiddo!!!

Maki says...

Life begins when we thought it is the end...

There's more to life...

I always believe that life is still a great blessing from the Lord...inspite of everything. We always learn from everything that comes our way specially the bad one's...and from that, we become a better person. We are armed with our past troubles and experiences. It whets our person to become better and to have a good judgment in much better way.

It's good to be good, and it's better to become better!!!

Tete a tete with Florence...

A good and sensible talk with a sensible type of person...
Salamat ha, sabi mo nga it's not too late pa.

Thanks sa calderetta and salad....yummy!
:(( But I don't intend to visit you everyday lest I wear out my welcome!!!

A nuisance...

Someday...and I hope it will come soon....
I'd be glad to have wholly shaken off these kind of people.......!!!


In God's time...I pray....

To those people...again...

Try to wear your conscience.........please!!!

To travel and contemplate...

Six months is six months...a very long vacation. I don't know if I can do it without worrying at home.

Who will clean the toilet? Who will wash the dishes? Who will pay the electric bills...and so on. Baka makagat cla ng mosquito carrying dengue...bka mag overflow ang tubig...baka d cla kumain sa oras...baka......sigh. Baka maiwang bukas ang oven...ang freezer at ang ref baka hindi nakalapat. :((

Hay naku naka sked na yan noh? D na dapat icancel....I want to give myself a break!!! At least makkapag isip isip ako ng matagal and try to evaluate my life...may dapat baguhin...dapat iayos...and to reconsider. Sana I can be as sensible as I can. It's high time na baguhin ko ang ilang bagay bagay. When I come back...I'll be a better person. I hope....

To love you more...

I have tackled some subject about everything I do and what's happening in my life...and I digress! If there's one person who I think...has loved me truly kahit laging mainit ang ulo ko...inspite of our differences...and tampuhan...it is my husband. He stood by me through thick and thin...and steer clear of the things I hated most. To you my dear...I apologize...

Nang malaman nyang I'll be away for 6 long months, nalungkot siya kahit nakangiti siya. Alam kong marami akong pagkukulang...babawi ako sayo...just give me time...in God's perfect time!

Thank you for loving me that much....I knew that from the off.
You're still my man......

Sacking out early...

From now on I will sleep na early...ten is just great...tho still a little late, ok na un kesa naman 2am ako matulog. I look like a zombie na sleeping too late. Got to give myself a more decent sleep to get rid of eyebugs and avoid having dark circles around my eyes...naku ang pangit tingnan. : ((

Bye bye...till my next post...

Ciao...!!!

Happy tone...

I decided to change the color of my template ...to give a diff'rent tone. I don't want to be in glum...again and again. I hope to write better and happier this time. Let the past be buried. Let's start everything in a proper manner and in a happy disposition...

During the wake of Elizabeth, I saw and met a lot of my classmates way back in high school. We 're all enthusiastic to rekindle everything. We plan to set a get together party, a reunion of sort, children meeting children...and make them be friends with everybody like their parents. Let them be acquainted and be familiar with each other. Meet and eat...with table talks...and share everything. You know sometimes it's a great feeling talking with whom you grew up with. Sensible and intelligent...straight and with sense. We've been texting a lot and talking a lot over the phone and it makes me ecstatic and joyful. I'm proud of them...Techot being a successful high-school teacher, a very prayerful person and a mother of 3 young boys. Wow ang ganda ng brand new white Altis nya...am pushing her to learn how to drive. I'll be glad to drive for you, dear. I also praise Florence, to the skies. She has two lovely daughter I have yet to meet. I promised na to her that I 'll visit Katrina and Mary...and will bring them a cake and watermelon seeds. They live in a subdivision near Rainforest. We'll take a walk daw don...ayoko sana for some reason, pero d ko siya matanggihan. Why I'm frantic meeting Katrina? Becoz I love to see her personally. Basta...saka ko na sasabihin ang reason behind. Also Zen...I hugged her tight when I saw her...and we laughed so much...hahaha! Kc may secret kami...don't ask me what. That's our deepest secret. We're looking forward na dumami ang contact namin...same goes with Annabelle and Rose.

Hurrah...we're a proud Rizalian!!!

On Julia Campbell's death...

I am so heartbroken with how a fellow blogger like Julia had met her final stay here on earth. This gruesome act should be condemned. I wonder how a fellow Filipino, could do such thing...to such a good-natured woman. To the bereaved Campbell's family....condolences!!!

To Ms Julia Campbell.... I praise you, to the skies!!!

Before I let you go...

I can still remember yesterday
We were so in love in a special way
And knowing that you loved me
Made me feel oh so right
But now I feel lost, don't know what to do
Each and everyday I think of you
Holdin' back the tears, I'm trying with all my might

Because you've gone and let me standing all alone
And I know I've got to face tomorrow
On my own...but baby...

Chorus:
Before I let you go
I want to say I love you
I hope that you're listenin' 'coz it's true
Baby, you'll be in my heart
And I know that no one else will do, yeah...
So before I let you go
I want to say it...I love you...

I wish that it could be just like before
I know I could've given you so much more
Even tho you know I'd given you all my love
I miss your smile, I miss your kiss
Each and everyday I reminisce
'Coz baby it's you that I'm always dreamin' of...
(Reapeat Refrain...Chorus...)

Letting love go is never easy
But I love you so, that's why I set you free
And I know someday...somehow...
I'll find a way to leave it all behind me
Guess it wasn't meant to be, but baby...
(Repeat Chorus..)

So before I let you go I want to say it...
I love you.....


I love FREESTYLE...their music is so good...!!!

"Have I fallen out of love?!"

A woman who had strayed a great deal in the past, once said....

"You know, when all is said and done, the best sex in the world is with your own husband in your own bedroom. You are free...you belong to each other... and the trust and commitment between you makes the physical act terribly satisfying..."

Often they agree that the marriage has become a drab, not because they married the wrong person, but because they are expecting the marriage to be exciting without making it exciting. That must be discovered within ourselves.

-Allan Loy McGinnis

Time heals all wounds...

Oh dee, am so worried, with how things are turning.

I live for my children and I can't imagine how would it be without me. They'll surely be very, very sad living without me. I got some health problems they all know that. Hypochondriac? No...definitely not. But I am wary now...more cautious...Life is short, as what they say. I'm edgy and had mood swings but am trying not to be...for the better. I want a stress-free and a positive outlook now...to enjoy life...and to live happily. No matter how painful life is...to those who did suffer...life has to go on, with all its ups and down.

Still....there is more to be thankful...life is still a blessing...!!!

Came in just under the wire....

Just got home from Arlington...we had merry-making, singing, praising and offered prayers. So many foods were served again... Cesar's band was there...belting some favorite songs...It was a happy get together inspite of the glum. All in all it was a little lighter than before.

It's been quite a journey with Elizabeth (Tata)...and during her last days here on earth I was able to confide things that's bothersome in a way. She gave me lot of words to ponder...to reconsider...and to think about. Words of advice came in just under the wire.

A good friend, indeed!!!

Goodnight...

Can't stand...eyes drooping already......all I want to do now is to lie down and pop right off....

Hot and bothered...and overwrought...

Can't sleep yet...want to write but my mind is not working well for me. Been answering phone calls since early morning. My classmates in high school are suggesting me to arrange a reunion para magkita kita kami. Been making calls...grabe...nakakapagod din.

My mind is really empty....sad because I've lost a good friend, tired and weary coz of sleepless nights. But honestly am hot and bothered 'bout our reunion. :))

Dutch treat...

I went to Arlington right after enrolling my bunso... I bought a funeral wreath and have it delivered there. There's a lot of food being served, drinks and some finger foods ready on the table. The ambiance now is much better. Mommy is in right shape, looks happier now and contented. She said she is happy now that Tata is in the hands of the Lord.

Many pictures of Tata has been posted in the front door. Pictures of her in Australia, in New Zealand, in US and Hongkong...wow...a jetsetter talaga. Can you imagine, US Immigration has given her a multiple visa?! Last month when she was still alive, I convinced her na samahan nya ako sa Hongkong. She said yes...I told her in jest na...Talaga Beth ha.... pero KKB tayo! She then answered, "Oo, ba!"


Pag naalala ko ang usapan namin, a sudden chill prickled the back of my neck...

Last wish...

I promised to be in happy tune, but forgive me...I saw this picture and this was likely what she had told me. She wanted to go to a place na maraming puno...maraming halaman...at mahangin. So, what I did was, made some arrangement na magkakasama kaming 4, at dalhin ko siya sa Eco Park. But it didn't push through na. It was some kind of a premonition and I did feel it, nagkaroon ako ng hunch na bka nga last wish na nya ito...a sudden chill prickled at the back of my neck pag naaalala ko ito. Kaya nadepressed ako ng di natuloy ito for some reasons.

To Elizabeth...
We will cherish the moments when you're here with us...

Three in a row....

I told earlier that I'd sleep na but i think I'm glued here blogging all day long...I need to sign out na to sleep naman to recharge my energy again. Had consecutive sleepless nights and I feel awfully tired and haggard looking already. Tomorrow I still have to visit a friend, Vivian and console her in her grief losing her Kuya Sonny who died recently of severe massive heart attack.

That makes 3 in a row...
Nana Charing, Sonny and Elizabeth...
May your soul be with our Creator...forever...

So long.....'til I post again. I promise to be singing a happy tune next time...!!!

Tolits...

I met BJ at the wake of Nana Charing...Rubie's mom, some 3 weeks ago. I came to love the little boy from the start, when he appeared in a Tide commercial. A budding multi-faceted young talent...who is very accomodating, sweet, soft-spoken, magalang at tahimik lang. Muy guapito...at walang kaere-ere sa katawan. I jumped at the chance of meeting him personally...took some pictures, hugged and kissed him.

I will always remember this cute young boy with a smile and with so much fondness...


I love you, BJ...!!!

Behind a masks...

Why do we often hide behind a masks? We vacillate the impulse to reveal ourselves and the impulse to protect ourselves with a blanket of privacy. We long to be known and to remain hidden.We build walls around us. A more serious reason is our fear of rejection.



-Alan Loy McGinnis

For you, my dear friend...

Thank you for being a friend...at all times.
Thank you for the memories we've shared...
With so much laughters...and happiness...
That we will surely miss...till the end



for ELIZABETH...

2nd day of vigil...

It's past 2pm and I still don't know if I can go to her wake. Had no sleep yet and still tired. With droopy eyes still. Ok...ok...am signing off now....will get some sleep and rest for a while....Ciao!!!



Stress freeeeeeeee.............

Life as it is!

Still here blogging since early morning. Hadn't eaten anything yet. Just quaffing cold iced-tea. Three deaths in a row...makes me shirk to contemplate. Life is beautiful...and we are still very blest. And so, from now on, I want to live my life positively and stress-free.

In friendship...

In friendship there's no curtain call...
We should build more windows and fewer walls...
To understand and forgive, and not to falter...
And becoming an expert at friendship is most rewarding.

Three magic words...

You're wrong, it's not the "I love You" thing. It's hard to resist if the person vulnerably says, "I need you..."

This old axiom proves true, "If you want to win a stranger as a friend, ask him a favor..." (is that you, dawg...?)

Definitely, it gives us greater satisfaction to be helpful than to be helped...

Drained and exhaustedly sleepy...

My eyes are droopy and I need to rest for awhile and forget what's been happening nowadays. Got to sleep to forget...and get off with all these inanities...

Burying the hatchet...

I can be easily piqued but I'm also quick in forgiving. I hate vacillating, that gives me an indecisive mind. And I have a great difficulty here. If someone apologizes, then am usually willing to finally bury the hatchet. But it's a different case when someone has wronged me and he doesn't even admit his error. Obnoxiously he won't have any guts to say "I'm sorry...."

Forgiving person is sometimes synonymous to weakness and being a push-over person. But for me just the opposite is true. It's a very positive trait. You have to be strong in order to forgive. It is much easier if we do not hold grudges, passing on a smile in return of a punch.

In any relationship of long standing, forgiveness should be the common ground. Becoz in their weak moments, one will be wronged...so we must live in the present and forget the past...'coz if we let us dwell on that matter, the friendship will be doomed!!!

Vivian's bro...in coma ...finally said goodbye!

I'm drained...and exhausted. I still yet to pay my last respect to Sonny, who were confined at the ICU of Marikina Valley Hospital after being comatosed last Holy Thursday. He finally gave up.

To Sonny...may your soul be with our Lord forever !!!

The 1st day of vigil...

I was trying to publish my post last night but I ended up (just) turning off the computer and sleep na lng cause I was just sooo drained. Yesterday was the 1st day of vigil...or the day to give last respect to our friend Elizabeth or Tata as she's fondly called. Tears welling our eyes...everybody's giving each other a hug and a warm embrace of consoling each other, some weeping, some telling tales, but the common denominator is, we are all in sorrow... losing Tata forever.

She was a friend indeed...who shared her love to anyone of us...shared her views and opinions. She was a friend who imbued to us the value of saving and working hard for the future. She was a silent millionaire...yes...unknown to many she was able to save much of her future nest-egg. She had lived a very simple way of life...a very simple dreams...she didn't splurge on material things, she wanted to be so simple and so plain.

Betchie...Bebeth...Tata or Elizabeth....surely you'll be in peace forever !!!

From your friends...

We'll surely miss you, Tata....

With love,

Abs, Bok, Susan and Nok

Losing som1 dearly is devastatingly painful....

I was with my friend Rudolf and my daughter Charri, at Robinson's Galle, to buy black pants and a pocket dictionary...when I received a text msg from a friend telling that Elizabeth had just died minutes after lunch time. I was stunned...coz I remember when she told me na mamasyal kame somewhere...ung may mga puno...halaman...at mahangin daw...like La Mesa Eco Park. So I called Bok and Abs. Bok was excited to bring along Justine and Susan...While Abs begged it off. So to make the long story short...Nagback out ung 3. Nagplano ako, they said yes...tapos d natuloy. I got piqued. She was even insisting na sumama ko sa kanya to her doctor at Heart Center. I said no. What if I said yes kaya? Naku, knock on wood...!!! It was a premonition kaya? She even texted me na matutulog na daw siya.

To my friend, Tata...may you rest in peace now...!!!

My favorite inaanak...

She's a little darling, who brings joy and happiness to my kids and almost everybody here...quite intelligent at her young age.


Joanna Pamela...3 1/2 yo

Not mindful of their legal obligation...

You know what...until now, the seller is not making any move to contact me and appease my jitters. My goodness, nagbenta ka ng lupa, we have nga the Deed of Absolute Sale...pero you still have to at least make ammends dahil wala pa sa akin ang title. Do you know what your obligation is, legally? Dapat nakikipagusap ka sa akin apologetically dahil sa delays na nangyayari. Pero di ka kumikilos...with your I-don't-care-attitude. May gana ka pang magtaray. Not nice!!! Try to be sensible naman. You have left me in the dark...groping...a topsy-turvy task going to and fro...finding answers to my queries and this is definitely a shitty things for me. Na dapat ikaw ang gumagawa nito para sa akin. Mailigtas mo lang ang sarili mong pangangailangan, di bale na ang kapwa mo. Try to put yourself into my predicament...and THINK how I feel?!!!

To put it bluntly...nakuha mo na gusto mo eh...ung perang ibinayad ko...kaya wala ka ng pakialam. And that's bullshit!!!

If you are a real good person...you have to prove it yet...!!!

Of ties and friendships...

How would you feel...when your friend only reaches out if she is in trouble or she is in great need? It's a sad thing di ba? Ang tingin yata nya sau ay 911. In any relationship, it should always be a two-way street....a give and take harmony...reciprocal...not a one-way lane.

This kind of friendship will only be so boring, na you'll think that you are just being used. So many kind of relationship like this would only put you in distress. It becomes a routine. If your in it, get out immediately or it will just scarify and hurt you in the end...it's so boorrrriiinng and scary...!!!

I looked at myself in the mirror and see if I looked like a real daft...

Cooler heads....

I called the manager of the bank and we were able to patch things up...I said my reason for being edgy over the matter and we were both sensible naman to accept each others explanation. She knew now where I was coming from. And I too, agree to even wait a little more. Nagkulang cla sa pagpapaliwanag and I said sorry if I have had said things that might have had hurt them. Mula ngaun umaasa akong maiaayos nila ang lahat. As soon as possible...

Saw my back-brace....

While talking to a friend over the phone kanina...I just saw my white back-brace...Yahoo!!!
Sobrang importante kc yan sa akin...I can't live without it. Parang kasama ko na yan habang buhay....This scolio is making me a handicap. Sometimes malakas...then in one moment very weak....and I hate taking pain relievers...I just rest if weak and painful....But somehow I came to live with it na.

In debt...

I inherited a land not more than 700 square meters, when my father passed away. Hindi na ito maituturing na maliit na bahagi kungdi itinuring ko itong isang yaman galing sa aking ama. I felt devastated and heartbroken when it came to a point in my life na I had to make a final decision dahil nagloan ako sa bangko ng P100,000.00 lang. Sa araw araw na patong ng tubo, parang walang katapusan ang aking pagaalala paano ko ito mababayaran. It took two years, at halos higit pa ito sa doble ng mabayaran ko. The bank collapsed...and it gave me greater fears na baka makasama ang loan ko sa foreclosure. I cried and cried and I got no one to help me in that predicament. I made a decision to finally let go of that land. It was not a bare land. It has (and still) a one storey bungalow type, and an adjacent 4 door apartment. Big enough for my kids to roam and play around. I loved that place dahil minana ko ung lupa at unti unti ay nadevelop at nagkaroon ng mga improvements.

Maraming nalungkot at nanghinayang ng malamang naibenta ko ang property'ng un for only 1.2M, so small the amount for that kind. What I had in mind noon ay mai.settle ko ang obligasyon ko. Wala akong magagawa. Sometimes strange things do happen so fast. Ngayon fully recovered na ako financially. Hindi mayaman at di rin mahirap.

Isang paalala ng aking mga magulang ang naiwan nila sa aking isipan, "Wag mong yakapin ang isang bagay na di mo kaya..."

I love simple type of living...

The difference between mayaman at mahirap...

I am proud to say na kami ay galing sa hindi mayamang angkan. Although hindi kami ung hirap na hirap. Kaya my heart melts easily, pag may taong needy asking for my help. If I can, why not...(Michael, pahiram muna ng why not mo ha... :))

Kaming mahihirap, nakakatulog kami ng maayos dahil wala kaming utang sa bangko na milyones ang halaga. At kaming mahihirap, alam naming mamuhay sa simpleng kaligayahan lang. We do not aspire to become rich, kahit makaapak ng kapwa basta yumaman lang. At hindi kami takot na maghirap dahil sanay kami sa kahirapan ng mundo. I think it is boastful to tell this pero, I am proud to tell that I am teaching my children to take part into charity....Yessss! May tinutulungan kaming isang group of nuns helping out and giving shelter to some wounded children. I am proud enough to say that this charitable endeavor is giving us an earnest fulfilment. Napakasarap tumulong sa taong nangangailangan, na kapag nakita ka na ng mga bata ay may mga ngiting isasalubong sa iyo at may pagbating may respeto...

Learn how to help...

Better be good....

The trouble with some people...pag nabuking ay d pa rin aamin. The seller texted me and I quote...."Ipapabasa ko sa bank mga text mo.(Go on....!) Alamin mo buong story bago ka mag conclude. D kami manloloko. Wag ka basta magbintang."

Here's my take...Ikaw na seller, ang usapan natin ay kaliwaan, ok? Bayad na ako. So ano ang obligasyon mo sa amin? I am sure you know what. Wag kang mag aangat ng boses sa akin dahil wala kang karapatan. It is as clear as the blue sky, na hindi mo maibigay ang dapat mong ibigay sa amin, kaya be nice...don't try to push me over...dahil d ako pushy...and I am not going to take this matter lying down...Isa pa, there's nothing libelous sa texts ko. And the nerve to say na alamin ko buong story...definitely I am not interested with your story and the hell with your story. Ang bintang for me is walang katotohanan but mere bintang lang. Hindi ito bintang lang...this is what is really happening...and you ought to be nice to me. Dapat pa nga apologetic kau pakikipagusap sa akin. Wala kaung sense of respect sa kapwa nyo. Kung meron man...nasaan? I can't feel it. Ako pa ngaun ang tatakutin mo. Eh sa totoo lang dapat kau ang matakot sa pngyayaring ito. Dahil maliwanag na kaso ito. Ibenta mo ang isang bagay na nakatali pa sa bangko. Ano ito? D pa ba yan pangloloko? How will you call that?

For no reason at all...

For whatever reason...I just broke down and cried...heavy heart...blurry eyes...tears welling...didn't know why...just wanna cry...cry...cry....

Kept wond'ring why...

Sometimes we just do want to cry...

On caring...

When a person is smothered with much caring, he becomes more needy and wanting to feel cared for...forgetting his part to show his share.

When a girl is neglected, it is often too painful to continue needing...

Giving too much...

When we give too much... they become overly demanding and unappreciative of what they have. When you give something and they want more, because it is not enough, it is generally a sign that you are giving too much.


Giving too much...to a fault

Stronger than ever...

I'd rather not lose my heart, my hope, and my courage...whenever I'm in my lower ebb...not to make myself despondently sad and discouraged...I have a lot to consider. I have to fight my disappointments. It only pushes me to sulk. Life is too short, and we have a lot to be thankful while we are here. So...

God gives us burden(to make us stronger...) , and shoulders too!!!

Cute little Yndee...

Pinasaya ako ni Yndee habang nasa care ko siya while traveling Marikina and Makati...para alamin ang totoo behind the dilly-dallying issue. Nalibang ako at nakalimutan ko sandali ang mga problema. I gave her a treat...hamburger, chicken, ice cream and ssshhhh, candies...magagalit kasi si inay...no candies daw kasi at wag kong spoil-in. She speaks in English and daaah...correct ang mga preposition ng bata. She intimidated my driver tuloy. At pinasaya nya ang lakad namin. What a nice and lovely day with an angel...

In the picture, I lovingly cuddled her to give her protection during the trip.

Jumped at a chance...

I saw my old friend Rowena, just now...whom I didn't talk for a very long time...say about 9 years already?!
Yes...I did cut all possible communications. It was a very complicated issue. She happened to be with the group, and it was my decision not to communicate with anyone from that group including her. Yes, wala naman siyang kasalanan. And this woman...already a spinster..( : )) hehe..wag sana nyang mabasa ito)...I tell you, is a crowd drawer. A very , I mean very...beautiful woman. She's near-perfect. From head to foot...and I wonder, why guys didn't woo her. Hahaha! She used to tell me na naiinggt siya sa akin. Dahil daw I have a very good husband...a good provider...lovely kids and a good life ahead. Ako naman, I used to tease her of having a nice and shapely pair of legs talaga. Ewan ko bakit hindi siya nakapag-asawa. When I saw her kanina, she smiled at me and I excitedly jumped at the chance...to rekindle the long lost friendship. Honestly I do missed her a lot. She's so sweet...and sensible. She promised to visit me at home. And I'll wait for that moment. I know I need to meet a lot of friends now...to uplift my spirit. Definitely, she's not one of the fair-weather friends on earth.

A devoted friendship is never without......anxiety.

Real sad...

I have lost or I misplaced rather...my white back-brace with steel on it...I needed it so badly...
for my scoliosis. Whoah...I can hardly sit, I can hardly walk...making me weak.

In ecstatic...

I looooooove my blog!!!
It's chirking me up almost everyday....

Plain and simple....

I like my blog even more...
plain and simple...
a very rare quality!!!

I wanted to name names...

I've a cooler head...nerves settled...dahil gusto kong bigyan sila ng chance na maiayos lahat ng dapat ayusin. Para everybody can move on. Please expedite everything to avoid any animosities pa.

Pleeeeasssssse!!!
I am so tired of waiting....

Woke up at the wrong side of bed...

With curled lips I texted the couple...the owner of the said property involved here. And F, who acted as witness. She knew now where I'm coming from. By the way...she took time out to hear my side. I went ballistic, dahil d ko nagustuhan ang tono ng text na natanggap ko. (May tono nga ba ang text?) No, no, no, please don't do that again. Not nice. Ako ang dehado d2 remember. I am not afraid...hindi ako ang may problema kungdi kayo. Kaya do treat me right ok?!

What had irked me ay ung pagmukhain nla akong tanga...3mos akong pabalik balik sa branch nyo, giving me false hope, na 1 day ay magrant na ung title sa akin...eh alam nyo palang may problema...sa main branch ko pa nalaman ang totoo. I'm not insinuating that there was a lokohan na nangyari...What I'm asking lang, was there a connivance here, from the start?! I'm jumpy na kasi... and my hunch proved me right. May problema nga.

You guys out there, try to look at it from worms-eye view...and analyse the predicament I am into right now.

Delayed reaction nga ako eh. Kung sa iba yan baka nagdemanda na sila. Ako, I am still giving it a hope na sana masettle yan ng maayos.

And I pray.....
Na sana this'd be settled sooner than I hope...to good purpose...

Just do treat me right...fair and square.
'Coz everybody is entitled to a fair shake.
Definitely, I'm no push-over!!!

Just wait and see...

It is much wiser not to hope and expect...
for it will only put you in greater predicament.
Just learn how to wait and persevere...
for your hardwork will always be compensated and rewarded!!!

It's past 1 0'clock na...

Eyes' smarting already...but I don't feel like sleeping yet. Maybe because a lot of not -so-good-things happened this day...or rather yesterday...

Some people are used to giving unsolicited advices, as if they'd think they're right.
Some people think of themselves as brat as a rat.
Some people tend to hurt other's feeling.
Some people are selfish.

Anyway...I love being with these kind of people...
cause they keep on amusing me...

I want to learn...

how to say no...

how to forget the sad part of life...

how to smile readily...

how to iron clothes...without creases and wrinkles...

how to fight paranoias...

how to save...

how to love myself more...

Change of heart...

As you can see I deleted all those music videos here...wala lang...type ko lang ng total change sa blog ko...I want to keep it simple...since it was only distracting my concentration when writing. And I need a lot of my time here. I am a music buff and I lose a lot of my concentration whenever I hear one.

Doing two things at once makes Jack a master of nothing...

A mother's love...

During my younger years...I used to tag along with nana going to the market. I would always insist then that we should take a ride. But she was persistent to just walk...excercise daw yon. Wala akong magawa, cause I couldn't go back home alone...afraid to be lost and so afraid of dogs roaming around the streets.

We would always passed by that little chapel near the old market...they call it, Dolores Chapel. What caught my attention was the dagger that was half-pierced into the left chest of Mama Mary...
I didn't recall how my nana explained that to me.
Now that I'm older...I knew the answer to my queries. The dagger symbolizes the pain...the struggles of being a mother. Remember how the crucifixion of his Son had hurt her to no end...she just wept...she knew that it was bound to happen. What hurt Her son doubly hurt her too...

A mother's love is undyingly genuine...
To those who still have their mothers...do love them preciously...and dearly...

A new day...

Sometimes with all the mess...troubles...and little problems that confront us, almost everyday of our lives...think of it as thorns. Like roses, with thorns...they are awesome...a sights...we can't change the fact that we live with thorns too, like roses...it's there already. They are a lovely sights with thorns...
And like roses too, we should feel great living in this world amidst those struggles....amidst those rainfalls...amidst the strong winds...and in the end, after all these...we will be strong again. Stronger than before...to face a new day...a new beginning...a new life.

Great things still happen....

Happy Easter!!! The day which we celebrate every year....The Easter Sunday...the day on which Our Lord Jesus Christ rose from His grave.....

Let's hunt for those Easter eggs hidden everywhere....go! go! go! children!
And let's start the Easter egg-rolling, too!!!

Black Saturday...

Looking outside from my window...it's kinda gloomy. World is in great glum. The day when Jesus, had died...after the great agony in crucifixion. He has loved us from the very start, and will still be loving us, to the last ditch. He gave His precious life to redeem our soul. Accepted all physical inflictions just to save us all. God really show His Greatness when He gave His only Son all the freedom to redeem us.

Sometimes we tend to forget our spiritual devotion in exchange of pleasurable things or worldly desires. I am...too, is not a perfect person...got my share of slip ups...I offended God's teachings but somehow I knew in my heart that I would be forgiven. Because He is The God of great Forgiveness. We, as human kind are sinners...that's the reason why Jesus, our Lord was nailed...and crucified...

Everybody seems to be in low spirit...in observance of the Lent.
Let us pray...

Even in my sleep......

Problem has been keeping me awake all these time. I only sleep when I'm physically drained and exhausted from everyday's long toil. This problem 'bout that TCT has been giving me nightmares and it feels like everything's in tohu-bohu...I always wear those creases even in my sleep. Look at that...I caaaaaan't sleep you know that...

I wish I could light up a cigarette, and take a few tokes...to ease my jitters.
But I simply couldn't..... (putting my health on the line...)

You guys....are giving me so much jimjams!!!
Something like Jim Crowism?!!
GBU!!!

Is this some sort of a heatwave?!

Atsui!!! My gosh... the heat is exhausting the energy in me...really draining it empty. :((
It gives me throbbing headaches...and a lot of perspiration too...
I hope my BP won't shoot up, please...
I need to close...
Ini mini...a Condura or a Carrier? :))

I didn't like Nina then....

I'd been hearing a lot of not so good comments about Nina before...I saw her personally several years at Makro...Then when I was in a mall, I heard this song and it stuck in my memory...a very good song...I thought the one who sang was a foreign artist. I went to a cd bar that burns and sell the stuff. I asked for it, only to find the wrong cut, same title...different lyrics. The one I like pala is the song of Nina.....she's so good a singer...ang galing !!!


I appreciate the song S O M E D A Y, by Nina !!!
Should hear it for yourself! Bet you'll like it too.

Music and meeh...

I am a music buff...


My all-time fave that I play again and again is "When I close my eyes", by Babyface.
For those who still do not know, Babyface used to be with the group called THE DEAL. The group was recording with Bootsy Collins. And Bootsy kept on teasing Kenneth Edmonds about his youthful appearance and called him BABYFACE....the name just stuck! I also love "When can I see you again..."

An invitation...just in time!

It's been two weeks that I long to go some places to unwind...to take a break...to breathe diff'rent air as they say...and enjoy. I invited a friend but...dear me, she wasn't just as interested...aargh! I regret doing that invitation. When suddenly I heard laughters outside, looked out of my windows... my neighbor/friend beckoned to have me for a talk...I went down and to my surprise...whoah!!! He is inviting me for a day trip to Puerto Galera. I'm thinking, classes will start before long...(Kids give me a break! : ((

Okey...this is it....!!! I won't let this chance passed without me in tow. Count me in, Rudolf.... :))

Isoide!!! Hayaku!!!

Am looking forward to that day...and meet his circle of friends including my anak-anakan, Stef and Anthony... so in love...Love you guys...!!!

I'm so, so, so.....piqued!

I couldn't believe that anyone could be sooooo rude, forked-tongue, and crusty. : ((
You know sometimes, or better still...we should guard our tongue.
Wala na yata akong narinig sa kanyang magandang comment para sa tao...
To you out there...look at the mirror and talk to yourself...
Not nice...it is so unbecoming of you! Public servant ka pa naman.
Election time...avoid jobbery...vote wisely...!!!

I looked at it in different perspective tho...and instead...
I want to train myself to be more understanding and sympathetic of others shortcomings and slip-ups. Yes, for me this is a hard row to hoe...but in time, I hope she'll be better.
And meeh too...

It's good to be good...

I think I'm hearty...
...to a fault!!!

Heralds of the morn...

Hello, world.....!!!
What a beautiful day to start the day...
I love the early dawn, the beginning of the day,
Looking at my windows waiting for the first light in the east!
The aurora...the daybreak...the sun rises
To bring new hope for every human kind,
And help vanish the darkness
In each mind...

Want something else...

Will log off...I'm hungry...soaked coz the weather is sooooo hooootttttt....
Dead-beat, feeling lightheaded and quite sleepy....


Ciao !!!

On individuality...

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways.


_Old Testament, Isaiah,LV,8

On perseverance...

Everything comes to those who can wait...


_Rabelais,Gargantua

My prayer...

Some pray to marry the man they love,
My prayer will somewhat vary:
I humbly pray to Heaven above
That I love the man I marry.


_Rose Pastor Stokes, My Prayer

Troubles begin...

Needles and pins, needles and pins
When a man marries, his trouble begins.

_Anon., Nursery Rhyme

On marriage...

Where there's marriage without love, there will be love without marriage.


_Franklin, Poor Richard's Almanac for 1734

On meeting...

We loved, sir_used to meet:
How sad and bad and mad it was_
But then, how it was sweet!


_R. Browning

Of letting go...

Better by far you should remember and smile...
Than that you should remember and be sad!


_Christina Rossetti

My Nicolas...

Hello, I want to start the day right despite of some hassle. Never mind what it is...it's nothing.
Of all those books I've had read in the past...when I was just starting, my favorite of all is by Jude Deveraux entitled, The Knight in Shining Armor...a sensitive love story that travels in centuries, worlds and souls. You'll weep because of its poignant tale about the hero and the heroine...a very extra ordinary story that will surely captivates the heart of the reader.

Douglass Montgomery, abandoned and faced by a cruel life, lay weeping upon a cold tombstone in an English church, when the most extra-ordinary man appeared out of nowhere. He was Nicolas Stafford, the Earl of Thornwyck, who died in 1564. Attired in gleaming silver and gold...he was so magnificent.

Well...go get a copy and unravel what lies ahead...
This is the epitome of every woman's dream and fantasy...
Just like me...you will fall for Nicolas!
Read it...

Back to reading all day long....

I'm back to my old habit, or hobby, or whatever...reading books authored by 1 of my fave novelists...Dean Koontz. I'm now reading THE PHANTOMS, and I sure hope that this is a good read also. I long wanted to get a copy of THE MEMOIRS OF GEISHA and some of JAMES PATTERSON'S. I'll shop till I drop, next week...find me at Filbar's Booksale Corner. I'll be scanning every books on sale there. And I will give a little synopsis or a glimpse of this book am reading right now for those bookworms like me. But for now......please....


I'm drained, bony-tired, exhausted and dead-beat.....eyes heavy now. Need to sleep and rest....

Goodnight....and Good Morning.....time to sign out!!!